Anxiety Flare

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My anxiety disorder has decided to put up a

 bit of a stink the last few weeks. I've been ignoring 

it and letting it kind of creep around for 

quite some time but it finally made it known that 

I can no longer avoid it. It is exhausting knowing that this 

will be a lifelong struggle for me, like many others. 

You do the things you need to do, 

feel better, slack a little, and then feel back to square

 one. I should have recognized some of the signs

 and symptoms sooner... well actually I 

did recognize them but chose to ignore

 and do nothing about it. I'm not sure why I do this to 

myself. I haven't been leaving the house again. Not to

 walk the dogs. Definitely not to get groceries.

 We've been having take out and that only

 leads to further isolation and disappointment with myself. 

I know what I need to do. Luckily I have an

 appointment with my head doctor in 10ish days.

 In the meantime I need to bust out my workbook 

and put some effort into calming this beast. 

For anybody who also suffers from mood disorder 

I HIGHLY recommend ordering this workbook. 

It is one that my Doctor has started using as her 

template for all her patients. 

Love Day Exchange Take Two

I signed up for a couple valentines exchanges through 

my Instagram account. One of them arrived 

on time and the lady loved it... The other never

 arrived at all! Ugh. I waited a few weeks thinking that

 maybe it would turn up either at her 

address or at mine, but no go. Completely lost.

 Sooooo.... I went out and purchased a 

second gift. I honestly like it more than 

the first one anyways. Valentine's has never

 really been my thing, Easter on 

the other hand is right up my alley. I love

 all things pastel and "eggie". Here's what I 

found for this sweet woman who has 

shown me and many others so much support.

"S" Mug- Anthroplogie

Pistachio Ice Cream Tea- David's Tea

Voluspa Candle in "    - Chapters Indigo

Worth the Wait Onsie- Chapters Indigo

Egg Truffles- Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory

Fave Finds

Since I've basically spent my entire week off shopping,

 I thought I would share some of my fave finds for the week!...

This mug from Anthropologie. It is soooooo

 cute. I'm a dog person myself but I hope

 my sister will love it when she gets it in the mail next week.

I also bought some of this bronzer. 

It is one that I've seen on everyones fave

 lists so I figured I should jump on the bandwagon, right?!?!?

I always have fresh flowers in the house, and this 

week I found the most beautiful peach bouquet from the 

grocery store of all places. 

SO much love for all things peach right now.

Speaking of peach, this nail polish is amazing. Love love love.

Shifting Friendships

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 I had just turned 26 when we first decided 

to add a babe to the family. At that 

time we were the first people in our 

friends group to be married

 and nobody was even close to wanting

 children. Fast forward 4 years,

 everyone is married and we

 are the basically the last to have

 kids. In fact, some people have multiple 

children. Multiple. Needless to say, 

relationships begin to change once babes 

come into the mix. Coffee dates

 are harder to manage, a lunch date is 

nearly impossible. and when they are 

worked out, I often feel totally out of my 

league and seem to have very 

little to relate to. What was once shop talk,

 makeup talk, fashion finds and 

relationship woes have turned into 

breastfeeding and sick babe drama. 

I want to support my friends but I also want to 

feel like I'm contributing. 

Instead I'm really fucking bored.

Just Peachy

I'm LOVING all things peach. Maybe because the 

weather has been so beautiful and it feels like spring is just 

around the corner. Peach is just really tickling

 my fancy these days. I saw the

 most beautiful peach bouquet at the grocery 

store of all places and HAD to have them. I always 

try to have fresh flowers in our entry way.

 It's such a nice way to be greeted

 when I come home. I also grabbed a few

 peachy beauty products this week. One was

 the Tarte Lip Surgence Power Pigment 

 in the shade "Glisten". It is one of my

 new fave products. I also picked up 

the Sally Hansen Complete Salon Manicure in the

 shade "380, Peach of Cake".

Hobbies

I've been really taking the time and focusing some

 energy on my blog again. I love connecting with people 

in bloggerland but I also love the reflection

 aspect of things. Sometimes it takes writing things 

out for it all to make sense somehow. That being said, this 

blog doens't take much time and effort either. 

I don't spend countless hours writing things out 

and the thought of making and sort of video as part of this, 

makes me want to vomit. I have 

WAAAAY to much social anxiety for that. 

What I've decided is that I need something 

else to fill my time. I've been quite dedicated to making 

my turn around days fewer which means I have more 

empty days that I sit around by myself. I made a

 goal that I was going to get out of the house more... 

well that's a good and bad idea. Great in the

 sense that my overall mood is better. Bad 

in the sense that all I do is go shopping! I need job just to 

counteract my spending! I just wish that I had

 a babe to keep me busy. Although, I would 

have many more cute things to buy.

Sleep and Crave

I've said it before and I'll say it again, I lose 

all motivation during my week of work. Day one

 and two I usually feel more motivated than ever. 

It feels good to be back at work, and then

 the sleep disturbance catches up to me. All I'm left

 with is being tired. I struggle to get out of bed to do anything. 

Nightshift takes a toll on almost 

everyone that works them. Dark under eye circles, 

headaches, nausea, and weight gain are the major 

side effects but did you know that 

premature death, type II diabetes, increased risk of heart attack, 

and strokes are also KNOWN risks. Jeez. That's motivation

 enough to try to counteract the toll it takes. I need to get more

 prepared so that the carb cravings are under

 control so I can get this weight off for the babe!

Reward System

I was trying to think of ways to keep me 

 motivated, set some goals, and have rewards

 for staying on track with Weight Watchers. Since I've been

 totally into the makeup thing lately, I decided that it 

was the perfect set up for a reward system. 

Any weekly loss = $20 ish dollar makeup find 

{ a new lipstick, maybe a nail polish, new hand cream ect...}.

 The 5lb increments are a $40-$50 reward 

{a new blush or a new brush ?!?!?!}

 I'm hoping this is exactly what I need

 to stay focused. I'm so wanting the

 Becca x Jaclyn Hill collaboration highlighter...

Grateful Day No.3 & No. 4

Day No.3- "Morning" | My Bed | My Refuge | My Bedtime |

Day No. 4- "Friendship" | My Parents | My Inspiration | Lovebirds |

Grateful Day No. 2

Grateful Day No.2- "Comfort" 

• My Loves  
• My heart
• My Snuggle Bugs

WW Week 3

I didn't participate in weight watchers this week. 

The ovary issue had me laid out for a solid week

 and it wasn't until today that I actually 

am mostly back to normal. I actually had enough energy to 

leave the house two days in a row as well

 as make it back to work. Needless to say, the diet took the 

back burner for the week. Tomorrow 

is weigh in day and I'm looking forward to getting 

back on track. As is my tummy. I've had 

an upset tummy for the last few days. Most likely 

from all the gluten, but that's just me speculating. I'm 

planning on doing a bit more prep this 

week and committing to tracking again. Let's hope next Tuesday

 I will have something to show for it. PLUS after 

the next 5lbs, I get to head to Sephora and

 buy this face brush I'm dying to get my hands on.

Oscars 2016

I loved watching the ladies walk the carpet at

 this years Academy Awards. The glam did not disappoint! 

I was a big fan of all the deep plunge necklines and how

 sleek everyone looked. Rachel McAdams can

 do no wrong in my opinion {although her 

assistant who let her walk to carpet with those 

wrinkles did!. Normally I don't like "barbie" pink but her skin tone 

and that pink were on point!... I've also been 

completely won over by Lady Gaga's new glam look.

 Without further ado, here are my faves!

What were your faves?!?!?!

I Am Grateful

I decided that I would participate in my FIRST 

ever photo challenge. Normally I'm a total commitment

 phob so I would never... but I'm also feeling a little 

disconnected from the TTC community and I also 

think it's a great self reflection/life reflection calendar! 

Now here's hoping I can stick to it... 

New Finds- Sephora

I've been wanting to purchase some makeup after 

watching a ton of make up tutorials. After having 

a major sleep in and having THE talk, we decided to venture 

out and head to Sephora {Yes, I dragged Rhys along with me}. 

I literally could have spent hours in there. I've always had

 a love of Sephora but I feel like I had a better grasp

 on brands and what products have 

good reviews. I ended up purchasing the

 Nars Radiant Creamy Concealer in "Chantilly" 

and also the Hourglass Ambient Lighting Powder in "Mood light". 

I haven't actually used them yet so the jury is still out!