Soul Searching

I've been laying in bed for a couple hours already tonight unable

to quiet the thoughts in my mind. Even my "go to"

anxiety tricks aren't working tonight. 

After months and months of wedding tensions 

things finally came to a head tonight. Over text. 

Yup. Text. 

So ridiculous. 

My head spins through varying emotions every 10minutes

and I can hardly stand it. Anger, Resentment, Sadness,

Guilt, Relief and then cycle again. 

We were officially "fired" from the wedding party tonight.

I would have liked a union rep present for this. {haha}

I have tried to be the peace keeper for far too long... 

perhaps that is what went wrong. 

in·teg·ri·ty  

/inˈtegritē/

Noun

1. The quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness.
2. The state of being whole and undivided: "territorial integrity".

 Rhys was honest. I was honest. We will not be divided.